Today is Mother’s Day and it’s the first time since I’ve become a mom that I celebrated it. On June 16th I will have been a mom for 7 years and on May 1st I’ve been without mine for 10 years. My first experience with death was my mother’s and her passing affected me greatly. I wasn’t the best of daughter’s, I wasn’t the worst, but I’m definitely close. Majority of my life, when she was alive, we were at odds; I did and said things that “I’m sorry” can’t repair or erase. Before my mother died we mended the gap between us but I will forever live with the fact that I didn’t use the time I had with her wisely. This is just one of many reasons why I haven’t celebrated Mother’s Day; until today.
I woke up this morning feeling like it was just another day until my 6 year old walked into my room with a tiny bouquet of roses.
She also made me the cutest flower in a tiny pot with her picture in the center of the flower. As I got ready to meet my friends for brunch a rush of emotions started to take over. I thought about my life and how good it is right now. I thought about how great it would be to be able to bring my mom with me to brunch and how much fun we would have. Since I was running late I pushed aside the tears and headed downtown. I worried I would feel out of place or uncomfortable or even an emotional wreck sitting among my friends and their multiple generations of their families. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I mean yeah in the back of mind I wished my mom was there but I really enjoyed myself. After brunch I headed home grabbed my little girl and went to the movies for mommy daughter time. I’m glad I waited to celebrate Mother’s Day, today was absolutely perfect!
To all the daughters in the world, remember you and your mom won’t always get along. You won’t always agree or see things from the same set of rose colored glasses. You will have good days and you will have bad ones. Try to remember that your mother gave your life, if it were not for her you would not be here today living and breathing. To you she may be annoying or a nag, she may not be cool, in your eyes, or technically inclined with the latest handheld gadget. But she is your mom, the one who loves you the most unconditionally. She was there when you were hungry, took your first step. She was there when you were sick, when you were happy and when you were sad. Love her, cherish her, and always remind her of how much you love her because one day you will have to live your life without her.
To all the mommies in the world happy mother’s day, you’re under appreciated yet loved infinitely.